Melissology

Meliss/o                       Melissa
-logy                            study of 
-osis                             abnormal condition
-oid                              resembling
-stasis                          control, stop, standing
-algia                           pain

I am Captain of the nerd herd. Humor me:

Case Study: 001    01/04/2013
A 20-year-old female Melissa presented to her doctor in an abnormal state Melissosis; she was not herself and that caused her terrible pain Melissalgia. The patient was spending several hours in situations that did not benefit her or make her any stronger. As time continued the patient felt less like herself and more like a Melissoid, with the appearance of Melissa but inside she was vastly different. The patient was hospitalized in hopes of returning her to Melisstasis, where she could thrive and be more comfortable.

Honestly there is nothing I love more than science and human anatomy, and it just so happens to apply to my life as of late. This case study is quite the stretch and I'm sure my medical terminology professor Dr. Chatelain would probably cry tears of blood at the sight of this, but alas what is done is done.

I believe that the first step to change is understanding what I need to change and what I have the power to change. As I am still in school, I view my life in semesters (Unfortunate, I know. Hopefully one day I'll see my life in calender years...). Fall semester of my sophomore year some very big things happened: for the first time I was working while going to school and I joined a sorority on campus. Suddenly a very busy lady and still taking my normal course load (12+ credits) my life was a little cray cray. Since then the crazy has not ceased. Swamped with obligations, I haven't been able to see all the great things life has to offer. As my stress levels increased the intensity of my classes rose as well. In the semesters since I have joined my sorority my grades have not been satisfactory, as ridiculous as it sounds, I, "Melissa the hermit!" was choosing social. What?!?! This past semester Fall 2012 was the worst, as much as I love sorority life I think it is time to take a break.

Most concerning of all are the changes I have seen in my personality and outlook on life. Anger has entered my heart, and has set up a nice little residence there. For quite sometime now it has been hard for me to find my place in my church. I experimented with my singles ward for a bit, but it just felt weird, and in my family ward I feel like I don't belong as I am not married. Recently I have let worldly matters influence my demeanor. I gossip and plot to do mean things (although I would never do them). I judge people  in my head almost constantly. No really, I do... no one is safe. In my expert opinion this needs to change.

That Awkward Moment When...

You forgot you had a blog...
Well hello there stranger! Fancy meeting you here, on this poor abandoned blog. It's funny how things happen isn't it. After reading a friend's shared blogspot on Facebook I realized "Hey! I have one of those!" and yes indeed I do. While reading my previous posts (and wincing at grammatical errors) I had a sort of revelation. Maybe this revelation is the product of the new year vibes emanating out of every media fountain I attach myself to, or maybe I have needed this for a while but was blind to it.
Alot has happened since my last post, major life events. Changes. I have changed and I don't particularly like who I have come to be. No longer am I the fun loving, always nice, always sweet, spiritual to the core Melissa. Lately I am sarcastic, quick to judge, worldly, separate, and all around... unhappy. Honestly I know where my faults lie, I saw myself changing and I looked the other way. Now, sitting here on my bed I am calling for a change. It's time for me to be Melissa again, a frolic in the snow, help a sista' out Melissa! No one can change this but me and this is my journey: